Saturday, April 7, 2012

Passing thoughts

Had the strangest moment today. Was sweeping the floors, like I do every day (usually more than once) and I suddenly thought that I'm so sick of it. Life in general. And that I can't wait to die.

It was totally a passing thought, literally 2 seconds and then I was a little shocked that I even thought that.

Any one else have those moments? Or am I totally mental.

I had a good day today, took the boys to town, got some nice photos, spent a couple of hours playing at the park which was nice. Cooked with them, did craft with them, ate a yummy dinner and got everything ready for Easter tomorrow. They were so good today too, I don't think I had to raise my voice even once. So I don't know why it even crossed my mind. It's really shaken me though. Made me think. I really AM sick of it. Getting up the same time every day, doing the same stuff from morning till bed time, sick of the same walls, the same trees, the same mess and the same clutter. Every. Damn. Day.

I know, I should make the change. Blah. Blah. Blah. There is only so much you can do when money is tight and schedules are full. Oh well. Life goes on.


  1. I have had those thoughts, it's been some time since I've had them though. I guess the best you can do is to change these moments for you is to change things up in the day to day a little so it breaks the monotony. Maybe simple changes in routines might give a small change in the perspective and outlook. But aside from that hugs Hun, big, big hugs.

  2. I hear you. Looking after a family is freaking hard, boring, monotonous work. I have had these thoughts in the past too, speak to your doctor if they persist! Fark, I sound like a ad on the TV! x